Over the past few months, I have been virtually(technologically) MIA in the fertility sphere! If you are new to my page, let me update you really quick! At the beginning of April, I started a BioIdentical Hormonal regimen through NaProTechnology that was assisted with weekly ultrasounds and labs to monitor follicular growth and hormonal levels! It was such a beautiful, peaceful and grateful experience as I was able and encouraged to share my faith with my two OBGYNs throughout the entire process! Though it didn’t result in a pregnancy, I conceived a newer, a stronger and a more unwavering stance in my faith and identity in Christ alone. I love how God has perfectly illustrated each season and each moment over the past 2.5 years of this journey, and how His hand has been in every part of it writing on my heart!
I ended treatment mid-August of this year. I was at such a peace, and though I thoroughly enjoyed the opportune season of sticks & pokes, ultrasounds, hormones and the tangible hopefulness that “IT” could happen, I welcomed the new season I was being transformed into! Moreover, I knew it had more to it than just the changing leaves of the Fall.
NaProTechnology was a “life vest” for me. Metaphorically, I have been called out into the ocean! Deep calling unto deep. A year ago from this December, God was calling me to fully enter into His Joy. A season in my life that I like to call “The Contagiousness of Joy!” In this time, I consciously made decisions to choose Joy, and as time went on it became apart of my spiritual character that I didn’t even have to “choose” anymore, it was just who I had become! During this season, I was carried afloat by this spiritual happiness that shifted me off of the shore of Control, Worry and Fear. I drifted off without a care in the world until God was calling me to go deeper. In April 2017, God brought me back into the realm of NaProTechnology. A season of thanksgiving and gratitude. A season where I spiritually immersed into the water, but kept afloat with my “life vest”! NaProTechnology carried me through. It allowed me to experience treatment that I longed for but was never given, and it matured and seasoned my Faith in my Heavenly Father.
Once treatment came to an end in August 2017, I was ready to fully submerge into the Faith that God had slowly and patiently cultivated within me over the last few years! An eager matured Faith that would soon be tested.
A couple of weeks off of my regimen had gone by, and little by little the physicality of my diagnosis started to resurface. It was as if this disease had come back with a vengeance. But God spoke to me, “Do not acknowledge or speak to it, do not give it life!” (“It” being hot flashes, tiredness, sleepless night, night sweats, emotional distress, etc.) I promptly obeyed! Each hot flash that would growingly radiate within me, I would grapple with unshakable faith and knowledge of who was bigger than “it”. I wouldn’t let the physical and emotional struggle even enter into my thoughts. I didn’t identify with infertility anymore and my body didn’t either, no matter what it felt.
God has held me in this season over the last three months. It has been a true testament of the faith God has built within me.
Two weeks ago, something anticipatedly unexpected happened (if that makes sense!!) My symptoms were changing. Hot flashes stopped. Mucus prevalent. Weight lifted.
I reached out to my doctor for the first time in months, which felt out of the newfound character God had called me into, but I felt led by Him to do so. My OBGYN wanted me to come in to do labs and an ultrasound to see what was internally going on. I felt God agree to follow through, so I scheduled an appointment for the following day, a Thursday.
On the way to the appointment, I was speaking in Heavenly Tongues and praying for His Will. Once I was in the sono room, I continued with prayer. During treatment over the summer, the biggest follicle we seen(ever seen for that matter) was one 10x10mm follicle. A mature follicle should reach 20x20. I was totally trusting in God and would be content with whatever the outcome may be.
The Tech came in, and started the ultrasound. I HAD TWO BIG FOLLICLES!!!!!! And my lining was THICK!!! My follicles measured 15x11 and 13x12, and later grew to 15x14!! This happened on faith and Christ alone. I looked at the tech and said “Praise God!!!” I never felt so much joy, trust and accomplishment than I did in those moments!! I couldn’t stop smiling that whole day!
I was able to spend that weekend with my husband, who works away! It was such a blessed and newly opportune time together! We had a follow-up appointment that Monday. My follicles grew a little, and the overall appointment was encouraging. My doctor said, “We don’t see something like this with POF!”
Overall, I wanted to share with you where God has taken me and where I stand today! I wanted to share the fruit that God is producing within me. I will continuously wear the Armor of God and stand firm in Faith unwavering! I pray that God continues to give me the strength, courage and perseverance to be unyielding to the enemy and throughout this journey. Only moving when He says to move. I feel its necessary and significant to celebrate every moment each step of the way ! And I want to give God the credit where credit is due! Because in all things, I will give Him deserving praise!
So, If it takes this much Faith to grow my follicles 3/4 of the way, I welcome the Faith it takes to bring em’ home!⚔️🔨💪🏼